Saw T today. Was soooo angry at her it’s crazy. It wasn’t even her fault I was angry. She’d been ill, and didn’t get back in touch with me when I text her telling her I was really struggling.
Still am in fact. I am still perplexed by last weekends events. It still hurts. Really hurts. Like I cannot explain. I tried explaining it to T today, I’m not sure she understood how much it hurts.
It was good to see T though, and it will be hard not seeing her until the 2nd Jan, but to be honest I can’t really complain. It isn’t that long away.
in the mean time I think I’d like to maybe try put together some sort of logic reason for being here. Or not being here. I’m pleased I haven’t harmed myself. Pleased I’m still here, but that doesn’t make me want to be here. I guess life just hurts too much! Simple as that.
Life hurts, people hurts. Everything hurts.
On a plus note though, Christmas is looming, and I am very much looking forward to giving gifts to my family. Especially my Stepson, his GF and my SO. I cannot wait to have quality time with them 🙂
That’s what Christmas is all about.
Oh, just to add, I gave T a genuine hug today! I’m getting good at this hugging shit! 😀