Roll on Friday. Walking around in a blur. What do you do, after someones died. Funerals all been and done. No more rushing around. Just an emptyness… a void. Where that person should be! So what now?
What do i do now??? I’m stuck in nothingness. Mourning is it?
It’s rubbish… i want to see them, hug them, tell them i love them.
But I’m here and they are gone… when will i join them?
When is my peace?
I can’t cope. I simply can’t cope.
The hard exterior is crumbling from the inside. I can feel my weakness breaking free. I can feel my need for comfort overpowering my better judgement. The need to be cared for and held…
I’m giving myself to the first available person. Will i be damaged? I don’t know. Do i care right now?